Not being able to pay the hosting fees and GoDaddy actually DELETING this website and visualfizzle.com, along with all the data belonging to both websites (at no fault of their own, I want to emphasise) didn’t exactly help matters, either. I ended up having to shell out data recovery fees (that I didn’t have, and now owe my bank) to get everything back, which turned out costing double the amount of what I would have paid had I been able to pay my hosting fees on time. But hey, there’s no price on pricelessness, and I am very grateful to GoDaddy for essentially giving me a second chance. I know, I know — next time, BACK UP!
What else is going on?
So, apart from the aforementioned, the reason for the silence has actually been for many reasons, but one of those reasons is because I’ve been working at a gym for the past 8 months, as a Gym Instructor / Trainer, for as many hours as I can, with the plan of using my wages to help fund P&R and other film projects. There just aren’t enough jobs going on in the film business for me at the moment to make ends meet.
But here’s the problem… I don’t think I have ever been as broke as I am right now. Ironic, as you’d think being “employed” would lead to being in the black, but with this particular job, that doesn’t appear to be the case. The paycheque just about covers expenses, I am never initially paid the full amount I’m owed each month, hours are erratic, and I spend more time as a cleaner and customer service representative than my official job title suggests. Oh, the joys of doing whatever you can to pursue your dream.
Hanging in there…
So why am I still hanging in there when I’m doing very little I enjoy, and working for eff-all? Well, for starters, with the economy the way it is right now, I’m taking what I can get, but also, I am working — albeit very loosely — within an industry that holds another passion of mine. Plus, as a lot of you guys know, I’m stubborn, and as potentially futile as it is, I’m hoping against hope, but also exploring a variety of different avenues within the fitness industry to make all of this slave-labour worthwhile.
And the plan so far?
The plan so far is to purchase a RED Scarlet-X (£3K, of which, I have already invested into all of the Scarlet’s required accessories) and FINISH Payne & Redemption as detailed here. There’s my commitment to you guys right there. I am in this for the long haul, and despite what some may think, I will NEVER give up. This is my dream, my career, and I owe YOU for your never-ending support and unyielding patience.
My reason for purchasing equipment as opposed to renting is two-fold. Renting is simply NOT financially viable for me, and I want 100% control over when, where, what and how I shoot. For example, if I have an idea for a shot or a scene at 3am, I want to be able to call up my actors, brush off their many insults and death threats, and start shooting! Freedom is one of the many keys to a successful low-to-no budget independent guerrilla film project, and I will stuff as much of that gold dust into my pockets as possible! But yeah, alright, I’ll try not to piss off the actors too much.
Freedom is one of the many keys to a successful low-to-no budget independent guerrilla film project…
Getting back on track…
I have a stack of e-mails from you guys that I am responding to as quickly as I can, and for those of you who wanted to know my thoughts on Max Payne 3… well, you’ll have to wait for my review. Which, OK, is less of a traditional style review, and more of a collection of bullet points, but you get the general idea.
Anywho, although not the most exciting news in the world, that’s what’s going on right now, and as always, I will be sure to keep you guys apprised of every new development that takes place regarding this project. In the mean time…
Fergle “Who really needs to change his avatar” Gibson,
Writer, Director & Executive Producer.